Used to be, when bedtime came, I'd fold down the bedspread neatly to the foot of the bed and we'd climb in our respective sides to meet in the middle. We always went to bed at the same time and shared the thought the bedroom was for two things only - making love and sleeping. We did both very well. There was never a TV in our room and we didn't read. Oh, how I miss the snuggling and spooning!
I remember pillow talk conversations about how "smug" we both felt having found this beautiful relationship. I wish now we'd used the word "blessed" instead of smug to express this wonderful closeness. Sometimes he said nightly prayers out loud, almost as simple and childlike as "Now I lay me down to sleep". My prayers were silent. I only said Amen aloud.
Today, it's toss the covers to one side. It makes a nice lump where a husband used to be. I roll way far to the side, near the night table where there's always a book needing to be read. Shameful to say, but I've been known to rotate sides - one week right, one week left. Don't have to change the sheets as often any more. Have you too fallen into some less than desirable habits since you've outlived your husband?
PS I still only say the Amen part aloud.
Sandy
I can relate. When my last husband passed, I moved to the back bedroom because I could not go back into our bedroom--I only unmade one side of the bed in the other room. When he first passed, for about a month, I could hear him walking on the carpet in the bedroom I was now in - it was very comforting.
ReplyDeleteI still think of him often and can relate to ongoing things where he would respond and still remember his response. ie, when I used a paper towel to clean glass, he would always say turn the towel over - as if I needed to be told each time.
God has blessed me with another wonderful husband and totally 100% different from my last. Its all good...and my last marriage also stays very fresh in my mind. I could go on forever...